I am nothing but an irresponsible gf and student.

Another weekend has come,and i still remembered how much fun i had during last Saturday.
Due to the midterm test of ANTENNA subject,this Saturday i ended up with staying at Cyberjaya and make revision.As a responsible student, i should had made preparation since earlier but everyone knows PPS is a super huge temptation.Nobody could manage to defeat it,either do I. Okey, i understand myself so well. Even there is no such thing like PPS ,i would still wasting my time and doing something meaningless ,just to avoid the truth of making revision.This is a very huge bad habit that i "nurtured" since first year entering university.How bad and dissapointed my parents would feel if they make to know their beloved good daughter is studying loosely in this way.Now,i am already a fourth year student in uni.And everything should become has made in their own way already.I believe that people like me couldn't change the attitude anymore,unless the day of karma come.and that will be the time i pay for the lazyness i have been in these few years. In the way im being a bad student in pursuing knowledge, i always know the limit and make out a way just to achieve a better result in order to graduate smoothly.

Here we go to mention about relationship,YES,is my relationship.and maybe,none of you would be interested. but please ,bear with me again,with the negative post.
You and I,we all know that falling in love is awesome,falling in love is sweet,falling in love is everything about wonderful.
and you and I,we all know that when time passes, the passion of love would be fading, because time brought away the feeling,the everything of our first-times.and the truth of reality always comes first in consideration,compare with love. Loving someone is great,but when we are growing up, its so cruel to know that having a good relationship is for someone who are in good financial status. Alot of us may not trust it,and think what i said abt " financial status is relatedly manipulates a relationship" is totally a bullshit. Even myself,i hope what i said is bull shit. but we will see it in future,and me,will see it soon.
I really really feel bad that, i am not the sweet girl like u seen me at first time,anymore.yeah i do agree it. Im like a motherly gf all the time. Im not romantic at all.i am always being worry of everything like a mother and even a granny do.u know wat,its kinda sarcastic when ur bf nvr complain about your bad habit and attitude ,while you yourself know how poor u perform as a gf.not only that,u still want to be stubborn and keep going with your relationship-destroying habits. and told yourself that because you fell out of love, you lost the passion of love,you lost the patient towards him/her.
I realized that, the problems actually popped out almost one year ago,and i just remembered at that time,we always argued started from end of last year,and luckily in the end,we made up together.
However, it is so bad to find out that, problems between us has never been solved,because it is all my fault.I lied to myself,i thought the problem has gone away if i tell myself it will be gone. It is just the matter of time. I told him time can helps me to think over it,but wat i did is living life like nothing happen.
One year has gone and i wasted it. It's time to puzzle up everything and make it right. Because, i hope to see a good relationship between you and me,in next year.Sorry for making everything too late.Don't worry,everything is still the same.It is just something from inside Please forgive me of being such a FAIL gf.
I know im fat,ugly,oily,disgusting,rude and selfish, all about a depreaciation property. I know i never contribute and create happiness in our relationship, and replace it with anger, argue, complaints,sarcasm ,since long ago.
Figuring out to appreciate and find out the FEELING is my main task.i know you always with me.

p/s: gotta gear up myself in everything.otherwise,i will be the most useless rubbish on the earth.

nite,people!

告别已久的部落格，你好吗？有许久没写blog，就有多就没聆听心中的声音了。

最近的我，过得很好。有很好的一群朋友陪我上课，吃午餐，说说笑，烦恼功课与运动。

我还变勇敢了哦，一个人去游泳。昨天遇上了那讨人厌又吓人的黑人猛叫着我，我当然就不理会他啦。幸亏这一次他没跟着我上电梯。

这学期的日子真写意，告别了上学期的累人时间表，美好的短学期又要来到了尾声。

先别谈这个，因为还有更接近的喜庆就到了。Christmas & New Year Eve. Time to party!!!

但是，

没有热闹的party,
没有美丽的装扮，

没有冰冷的下雪天，

没有一群人的聚会，

没有美味的食物，

那还是个celebration吗？

无论如何，我还是很渴望有人约我去party.嘻嘻。

人生的美好是这些吗？

美丽的外表，

姣好的身材，

优秀的人格，

出众的资格，

没有了这些，人生还美好吗？

我也很想拥有这一切。

可是光说没用，我就看不起自己光说不做，光羡慕不实行。还要在这里发泄，根本就荒谬！！！

最近的我，减肥计划根本一败涂地。看着自己体重持续地加重，我的自信心一次又一次被打击。

最可恨的事，我还继续爱吃东西。

因为我真得很不忿，我只是吃自己觉得饱的分量，为什么还要继续肥。

别人吃多吃少关我舍事，干吗要我正常？

艺术是没有境界的，我只是以艺术的角度来进食而已。

这世界能不能没有“肥”与“瘦”的分别啊？？？

我希望自己有厌食症，再爆瘦50 kg也没关系。

我希望自己有过人的志气，被人取笑就努力减去肥肉。

我最希望有个仙女棒，把我一点就变成50kg.

让我仔细想想，自己忍受了多年的肥样是怎样的。

肥厚的手臂，害我不能穿无袖的衣服，游泳衣，很多很多的流行衣物。

犹如spare tyre的肚腩，更是害我呼吸困难，还得穿大肚衣出街。

比八月十五还大十倍的臀部，令我一辈子都穿不上skinny jeans，把牛仔裤穿得自信。

想一想，自己也跟“肥胖”签了21年的合约。苦了自己，苦了家人，也苦了看我自卑听我诉苦的朋友。上天，请剪掉我的食欲，启动我的运动穴。因为我要和"FAT"解约了。我再也受不了自卑的谴责。取笑我的人，请继续，你们的打击是在不够火候。如果有天你看到我正在吃东西的时候，你尽管看小我吧。因为本人又在放纵了。

我真得很肤浅，因为总认为如果自己瘦，我的人生会更好。

说了一大堆针对自己肥的话，是我第一次向自己正视问题，正视自己的弱点。

接着本人会大报更多惊爆的话题，揭穿自己心里的弱点，务必要自己面对。

诚实面对自己，今天你做到了吗？

p/s：人生很美好，如果你拥有了最好的思想。但是我没有，所以要减肥。^^

我想念那段美好的日子，瘦瘦的！

加油，依莎贝拉。

Run The Show-Kat DeLuna ft Busta RHymes

Rainy days and pressure of study never ever vanish the our passion on night outing. Dedicated this song to all night cats^^

My Neighbour Totoro by Miyazaki 《龙猫-宫崎骏〉

4am at the midnight,i just finished watching a movie <>. It is a simple story line movie,but still,i rewatch it after few years i had watch.How wonderful of my life if i could live in a world with guardian of forest totoro.The movie contains some of the nice scenery where located in small village.and its elements are simply cute,simple and rustic . Today,i had myself a good movie which makes everything good.

Chi-chi cha,boom-boom cha...

How great were they to bring a totoro cat car to reality!

Totoro is so cute while holding the umbrella.

p/s: To anyone who interested with Miyazaki's collection,can ask from me^^XOXO,night people!!

Lala徐佳瑩-失落沙洲

想象，最爱的人永恒地离开。。。

一个人独自地看海，迂回地徘徊在原地。。。

这样的一天，你我会遇上吗？