近完美。

长大了以后，我们学会不推卸责任，尽力成为有责任感的好宝宝。
我们反省一切错误，从不责怪别人。
我们学习Micheal Jackson 的 "Man In The Mirror", look into urself and make a change.
我们鼓励别人鼓励自己，be confident to yourself，因为信心很重要。信心不能决定一切，但无可否认有信心的人比较快乐。有信心的人不理会无谓的事物，朝自己的理想前进，过自己快乐的生活。我不懂的有信心的人长什么样，但我知道有信心的人总会让人另眼相看，让人相信他的能力。
我们希望自己有足够的智慧，排除万难，快乐走过人生路。
我们都希望天生拥有过人的才华，当个优秀的专业人士。
我们更希望成为一个高尚不势力的人。
我们希望成为很多很多。。。。
虽然知道nothing is perfect, 但是有谁不希望能更接近完美？

"Without an excellent CGPA, what else can define u a person with bright future?" , I have asked myself for quite a long time. After observing myself for sometime, I still couldn't see I would be able to success in any carreer. Perhaps, i need to pickup a lot of courage to go for the direction i was long to pursuit, just to find back the motivated me. How pathetic am I, and even more when i found out that Im facing difficulties to voice up my thoughts in front of people I dont really close.This is so aweful to be happened when u r soon to be going for interview. May God bless me and I must have to do something to help the situation.

short review to catch up the late posts

2 weeks of holiday passes too fast, untill i didn't manage to catch up any chance doing something meaningful, other than missing my college friends and ma bf. Anyway, i still enjoy the moment of spending time with my family.Holidays is as if a bonus for us who being a student,while we take this bonus as an effective motive for striving and struggling in new trimester. I guess,student life is the best moment among different stage of life. However, the day of graduation is only left with one and half year. I should really put more effort to create memorable moments with my friends ,and of course being well-prepared for future. I promised myself to swicth back my biology clock during this holidays, but it have seemed fail because of repeatedly insomnious night every day. Luckily, there is still a good thing accompany me over night,which is the E-book in handphone. Instead of reading e-book, lowyat forum and facebook also helps alot in filling my boring night. And i know by saying thousand of thank you to simps for borrowing her broadbrand internet access to me generously, doesnt really enough to express my grateful. During this holidays, i realized that internet access has really became a very needful element in my life, because i scare of being isolated and outdated of latest news.

Recently, i started taking the pil recommended by doctor which is for diet purpose. Super thanks to my mum for sponsoring and suppporting me fully everytime i want to diet. Sigh,whenever mention about diet, i could say myself is a loser because i never really make it success. But the loser like me is really lucky to have a very good bf.Whenever looking in the mirror and weighing on the machine, the oily fatty bum and the unstoppable increasing weight, except of making me feel ashame and pissed off, i also questioning myself why would my bf still be able to love me but not dump me. Perhaps, fatty has her fascination and attraction too. and i know myself is really cool even with excessive fat producing body. With an abnormal weight, my life still needs reasonable amount of confidence to let it goes on. Well, i deeply hope this pil named "Reductil" can really helps me reducing some kilogram. I believe in it as my appetite is obviously became lesser after taking it.

Well, its been another long time,i didnt update my blog.Now, i have to make some reviewal starting from the  study week.So let's the photo do the talking.=)

Doing Seakelp mask during study week @ my room
A must to have myself doing mask more frequently while being so stressful during the study week. Seakelp mask looks terrify and bear with me,i just love capture the moment of i applying mask.

haha, kindly name me a Monster. and would u still be my friend if my face become totally like this?

A closer view on my face.looks natural right? and guys prefer gf in their natural look. So, B do u love me in this look???hahaha...

Christmas Eve @ Neway

Christmas tree in Times Square. Didnt get to capture from Pavillion,kinda waste .

First time of snapping a picture with Santa and, i don't really know who is the another lady, perhaps she is gf of Santa.=)

me and mr. B

Banana Passion from Baskin Robin which costs me rm 16,with lime and mango flavour.There are almost 5 types of fruit flavour in a bowl,quite delcious for me, and have cured my headache efficiently for temporary.haha.

 

Mr. B 's comment : not nice and the flavour too girlish. but he was the one who finished it.

another time of indulging myself.

leng zai B =p

leng zai is enjoying in his melody and i melted because he sang too well.

time to party!!

the emotion inspired from Avatar's leading character Neytiri. I love this one!

the guys.

and the christmas eve was ended up with catching a movie named " Sherlock Holmes" in GSC Times Square, instead of hanging out at Bukit Bintang. I was sleeping for half of the movie duration because i was totally exhausted for keeping myself awake more than 24 hours. It was a great christmas in year 2009 with many chances of hanging out ,and since the exam was just over, i have felt the sweetness of  this festive season, thanks to MMU good schedule planing.

Dinner on 26th December @ Fullhouse

special date with my besty, Simps Gaga at sunway, although it's just a super ordinary date at a ordinary place, we have spent alot of quality time together. and yet the moment is special for me.

Simps's Grilled chicken thigh served with mashed potato, daily vegetables and black pepper raisin jus. tis is so recommended compare with my dish.

 My Grilled fish served with mashed potatoes, mushroom and berries jus. The mistake of the dish is its sweet berry sauce.

Simps won this car in Fullhouse lucky draw. CHIO or not? and she promised to fecth me for more outing in future.

Bodyguards and Assassins 《十月围城》 @ TGV Sunway

 

Ma B.

I ain't cam-whore, but my cam is I-whore.

30th of December @ Pavillion

Another outing and believe me this is the last outing in this post. Went to pavillion to shop for cheaper thing during the last few days of megasale. and we have met biggest harvest of the date which is the dessert from Snowflakes.Had been walking from Times Square to pavillion back and forth, it's really tiring but it worthed to save rm 8 parking fees.

Tired and pity guy who is waiting gf was spotted.

Oukay, he was rewarded with this tasty and nice icey dessert.

FOOD always the easiet way to fullfill his satisfaction.

Last day of me in black hair. I was soon to be Blonde girl.

So, here's the end of my spree-after-exam. I had great time with my beloved frens and B. When my next holiday come, i would want to have more fun since there is only left with few time of holidays untill graduation.

人能感动就是幸福

[感动是一种发自内心世界的感觉，是一份不由自主的意识，是一个震憾心灵的泉源。


感动是平常人幸福的眼泪，是与人为善的宽容，是风雨中的搀扶，是相濡以沫的同甘共苦。


没有感动的世界一片荒芜，像沙漠没有花草的祝福，没有感动的天空一片阴霾，单调得没有一丝色彩。


没有感动的海洋，海浪失去了动力没了澎湃，没有感动的大地一片死寂，春夏秋冬没有果实。]


　　

朋友说我每次的post 很emo. 与其说我emo,不如说我感性。
对，我是个感性的人。容易被感动，容易被愁绪涌上心，更容易掉下“男儿泪”，这就是我。
此刻，我想要抛开考试的压力，让一切感动渲染我的心。
一首首简单但动人的旋律，特别在深夜里，成为了感动的养分。
今天部落格多了一个朋友第一次的留言，真得很令我开心。
我不是要求简单，而是这第一次真得让我很珍惜很感动。

当觉得感动时，你会怎么办？我呢，最想流眼泪。

还是，你有更好的表达方式？
感动的瞬间，让人觉得很满足很幸运，拥有世上最美好的，像是一切到此就很足够。

但很多时候，生活中的一幕一幕让人麻木不仁，把一切都变得理所当然，眼里的所有付出和所得都理所当然。
我们不再感动。
生活里少了感动的事情.

我们少了发现感动的眼睛和心灵。

我们也许离理想的幸福很遥远，但我们绝对有能力握住这一刻，感动地呼吸，感动地活着。

p/s：虽然我写得很lame,希望大家能明白我的心意啦。

匆匆地走过岁月，来不及捉住的美好，我已要走向繁忙的明天。

过去的一切感觉，就在今晚，涌上了心头。

相片，一张张地激起了回忆。快乐的，伤心的，清清楚楚地在脑中闪过。

我的心，任意地迷失在时空里，看着自己的过去。

人是善忘的，日子的增长，环境的变迁，有谁，还是当初的自己？

生命的旅途，很伟大很抽象，也少不了遗憾。

在今晚，回忆让我觉得，我的心像是失去了很多，不知是什么东西的东西。

我想念你，一个我不知道是谁的你，真的真得很想你。。。

I am nothing but an irresponsible gf and student.

Another weekend has come,and i still remembered how much fun i had during last Saturday.
Due to the midterm test of ANTENNA subject,this Saturday i ended up with staying at Cyberjaya and make revision.As a responsible student, i should had made preparation since earlier but everyone knows PPS is a super huge temptation.Nobody could manage to defeat it,either do I. Okey, i understand myself so well. Even there is no such thing like PPS ,i would still wasting my time and doing something meaningless ,just to avoid the truth of making revision.This is a very huge bad habit that i "nurtured" since first year entering university.How bad and dissapointed my parents would feel if they make to know their beloved good daughter is studying loosely in this way.Now,i am already a fourth year student in uni.And everything should become has made in their own way already.I believe that people like me couldn't change the attitude anymore,unless the day of karma come.and that will be the time i pay for the lazyness i have been in these few years. In the way im being a bad student in pursuing knowledge, i always know the limit and make out a way just to achieve a better result in order to graduate smoothly.

Here we go to mention about relationship,YES,is my relationship.and maybe,none of you would be interested. but please ,bear with me again,with the negative post.
You and I,we all know that falling in love is awesome,falling in love is sweet,falling in love is everything about wonderful.
and you and I,we all know that when time passes, the passion of love would be fading, because time brought away the feeling,the everything of our first-times.and the truth of reality always comes first in consideration,compare with love. Loving someone is great,but when we are growing up, its so cruel to know that having a good relationship is for someone who are in good financial status. Alot of us may not trust it,and think what i said abt " financial status is relatedly manipulates a relationship" is totally a bullshit. Even myself,i hope what i said is bull shit. but we will see it in future,and me,will see it soon.
I really really feel bad that, i am not the sweet girl like u seen me at first time,anymore.yeah i do agree it. Im like a motherly gf all the time. Im not romantic at all.i am always being worry of everything like a mother and even a granny do.u know wat,its kinda sarcastic when ur bf nvr complain about your bad habit and attitude ,while you yourself know how poor u perform as a gf.not only that,u still want to be stubborn and keep going with your relationship-destroying habits. and told yourself that because you fell out of love, you lost the passion of love,you lost the patient towards him/her.
I realized that, the problems actually popped out almost one year ago,and i just remembered at that time,we always argued started from end of last year,and luckily in the end,we made up together.
However, it is so bad to find out that, problems between us has never been solved,because it is all my fault.I lied to myself,i thought the problem has gone away if i tell myself it will be gone. It is just the matter of time. I told him time can helps me to think over it,but wat i did is living life like nothing happen.
One year has gone and i wasted it. It's time to puzzle up everything and make it right. Because, i hope to see a good relationship between you and me,in next year.Sorry for making everything too late.Don't worry,everything is still the same.It is just something from inside Please forgive me of being such a FAIL gf.
I know im fat,ugly,oily,disgusting,rude and selfish, all about a depreaciation property. I know i never contribute and create happiness in our relationship, and replace it with anger, argue, complaints,sarcasm ,since long ago.
Figuring out to appreciate and find out the FEELING is my main task.i know you always with me.

p/s: gotta gear up myself in everything.otherwise,i will be the most useless rubbish on the earth.

nite,people!

告别已久的部落格，你好吗？有许久没写blog，就有多就没聆听心中的声音了。

最近的我，过得很好。有很好的一群朋友陪我上课，吃午餐，说说笑，烦恼功课与运动。

我还变勇敢了哦，一个人去游泳。昨天遇上了那讨人厌又吓人的黑人猛叫着我，我当然就不理会他啦。幸亏这一次他没跟着我上电梯。

这学期的日子真写意，告别了上学期的累人时间表，美好的短学期又要来到了尾声。

先别谈这个，因为还有更接近的喜庆就到了。Christmas & New Year Eve. Time to party!!!

但是，

没有热闹的party,
没有美丽的装扮，

没有冰冷的下雪天，

没有一群人的聚会，

没有美味的食物，

那还是个celebration吗？

无论如何，我还是很渴望有人约我去party.嘻嘻。

人生的美好是这些吗？

美丽的外表，

姣好的身材，

优秀的人格，

出众的资格，

没有了这些，人生还美好吗？

我也很想拥有这一切。

可是光说没用，我就看不起自己光说不做，光羡慕不实行。还要在这里发泄，根本就荒谬！！！

最近的我，减肥计划根本一败涂地。看着自己体重持续地加重，我的自信心一次又一次被打击。

最可恨的事，我还继续爱吃东西。

因为我真得很不忿，我只是吃自己觉得饱的分量，为什么还要继续肥。

别人吃多吃少关我舍事，干吗要我正常？

艺术是没有境界的，我只是以艺术的角度来进食而已。

这世界能不能没有“肥”与“瘦”的分别啊？？？

我希望自己有厌食症，再爆瘦50 kg也没关系。

我希望自己有过人的志气，被人取笑就努力减去肥肉。

我最希望有个仙女棒，把我一点就变成50kg.

让我仔细想想，自己忍受了多年的肥样是怎样的。

肥厚的手臂，害我不能穿无袖的衣服，游泳衣，很多很多的流行衣物。

犹如spare tyre的肚腩，更是害我呼吸困难，还得穿大肚衣出街。

比八月十五还大十倍的臀部，令我一辈子都穿不上skinny jeans，把牛仔裤穿得自信。

想一想，自己也跟“肥胖”签了21年的合约。苦了自己，苦了家人，也苦了看我自卑听我诉苦的朋友。上天，请剪掉我的食欲，启动我的运动穴。因为我要和"FAT"解约了。我再也受不了自卑的谴责。取笑我的人，请继续，你们的打击是在不够火候。如果有天你看到我正在吃东西的时候，你尽管看小我吧。因为本人又在放纵了。

我真得很肤浅，因为总认为如果自己瘦，我的人生会更好。

说了一大堆针对自己肥的话，是我第一次向自己正视问题，正视自己的弱点。

接着本人会大报更多惊爆的话题，揭穿自己心里的弱点，务必要自己面对。

诚实面对自己，今天你做到了吗？

p/s：人生很美好，如果你拥有了最好的思想。但是我没有，所以要减肥。^^

我想念那段美好的日子，瘦瘦的！

加油，依莎贝拉。

Run The Show-Kat DeLuna ft Busta RHymes

Rainy days and pressure of study never ever vanish the our passion on night outing. Dedicated this song to all night cats^^

My Neighbour Totoro by Miyazaki 《龙猫-宫崎骏〉

4am at the midnight,i just finished watching a movie <>. It is a simple story line movie,but still,i rewatch it after few years i had watch.How wonderful of my life if i could live in a world with guardian of forest totoro.The movie contains some of the nice scenery where located in small village.and its elements are simply cute,simple and rustic . Today,i had myself a good movie which makes everything good.

Chi-chi cha,boom-boom cha...

How great were they to bring a totoro cat car to reality!

Totoro is so cute while holding the umbrella.

p/s: To anyone who interested with Miyazaki's collection,can ask from me^^XOXO,night people!!

Lala徐佳瑩-失落沙洲

想象，最爱的人永恒地离开。。。

一个人独自地看海，迂回地徘徊在原地。。。

这样的一天，你我会遇上吗？